I miss this tough cookie so much.

My poor sweet beautiful Boo Rabbit had to be put to sleep today.

We brought her to the vet yesterday for G.I. stasis and they wanted to keep her overnight, but she still didn’t perk up. This morning they wanted to do x-rays because she had started breathing heavy and they thought it was maybe pneumonia. But they found kidney stones. I guess she had them for a long time and they built up because her left kidney was huge and full of stones. She was a trooper but finally the pain was too much and she didn’t want to eat anymore. The vet said they don’t do that surgery on small animals because it’s too risky, and because of her poor condition already, her chances of recovering were slim. I had no idea anything was wrong.

We went back to the vet today and they let us sit with her for a while. She was wrapped up in a towel and I was finally able to hold her. Her face was a mess from being force-fed and it was cute and sad. She seemed sleepy and happy that I was holding her. She cuddled up next to my chest. I cried a lot. My mom and dad cried a lot. She was so soft and so skinny. She only weighed four pounds. I knew that no amount of apologizing and kissing her would fix it, so I finally asked my dad to get the vet. They took her out of the room to give her the shot and then gave her back to me so I could hold her while it did its work. I cried so much. It seemed to work very quickly. I hope she wasn’t scared. I held her for a long time until someone came in to listen to her chest and tell me that she had passed. They took her away and met us outside with a cardboard box. My parents told me I did a good job.

We buried her behind the big tree next to the house where I let her explore. Inside the box, they had wrapped her in a hand-knit blanket with a pretty flower. I found a nice white flower from in front of the house and put it on top of her along with her stuffed Yoshi. I couldn’t help thinking about how it was such a nice day and if things were different I would have brought her outside to enjoy it.

I was so excited yesterday because we brought her to a new vet who deals with rabbits all the time and everyone there seemed so nice. I was so happy when she told me Boo had perfect teeth. I was proud of her for being such a good, cooperative girl for them. I was making plans for how to celebrate our five year anniversary together, her sixth birthday, in June.

I cried a lot all day and I’m crying writing this and I’m going to cry a lot for a long time about this.

Ignore Boo’s messy room and just focus on her smushing herself between all her stuffed friends.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

Boo and I cuddle on the floor every night. I think she looks regal in this photo.

I caught Boo munching on some parsley while bunning. What a lazy cutiepatootie.

Sometimes Boo cuddles with me on the floor and it’s the best thing.

I brought a box of snow inside for Boo to see what she thought. She doesn’t like it at all!

Poor Boo Bunny can’t catch a break. We woke up at the same time this morning and she was acting really weird, kicking her feet and laying her head on the floor like she couldn’t hold it up. She was grinding her teeth very loudly and wouldn’t let me pet her. She wouldn’t eat or drink. She wouldn’t even pay attention to Yoshi. She was fine last night and I was so scared. I felt around her face and she had a lump in the same place as before. My mom and brother are both working so I had no way to get to the vet. Luckily, Matt was a hero and came all the way out here and brought us over. I thought it was going to be a tooth root abscess for sure, but the vet just squeezed the lump until it popped and a bunch of gunk came out. It was so gross. They cleaned her up, gave her a shot of an antibiotic and a painkiller, and told me to keep giving her antibiotics for six more weeks. They think it’s Pasteurella, so I have to keep an eye out for lumps anywhere on her body. She’s in her post-vet hiding phase now, but I hope she will eat something on her own soon because I feel like such a jerk when I have to force-feed her Critical Care. I just want my baby to be healthy again!