I miss you.
My poor sweet beautiful Boo Rabbit had to be put to sleep today.
We brought her to the vet yesterday for G.I. stasis and they wanted to keep her overnight, but she still didn’t perk up. This morning they wanted to do x-rays because she had started breathing heavy and they thought it was maybe pneumonia. But they found kidney stones. I guess she had them for a long time and they built up because her left kidney was huge and full of stones. She was a trooper but finally the pain was too much and she didn’t want to eat anymore. The vet said they don’t do that surgery on small animals because it’s too risky, and because of her poor condition already, her chances of recovering were slim. I had no idea anything was wrong.
We went back to the vet today and they let us sit with her for a while. She was wrapped up in a towel and I was finally able to hold her. Her face was a mess from being force-fed and it was cute and sad. She seemed sleepy and happy that I was holding her. She cuddled up next to my chest. I cried a lot. My mom and dad cried a lot. She was so soft and so skinny. She only weighed four pounds. I knew that no amount of apologizing and kissing her would fix it, so I finally asked my dad to get the vet. They took her out of the room to give her the shot and then gave her back to me so I could hold her while it did its work. I cried so much. It seemed to work very quickly. I hope she wasn’t scared. I held her for a long time until someone came in to listen to her chest and tell me that she had passed. They took her away and met us outside with a cardboard box. My parents told me I did a good job.
We buried her behind the big tree next to the house where I let her explore. Inside the box, they had wrapped her in a hand-knit blanket with a pretty flower. I found a nice white flower from in front of the house and put it on top of her along with her stuffed Yoshi. I couldn’t help thinking about how it was such a nice day and if things were different I would have brought her outside to enjoy it.
I was so excited yesterday because we brought her to a new vet who deals with rabbits all the time and everyone there seemed so nice. I was so happy when she told me Boo had perfect teeth. I was proud of her for being such a good, cooperative girl for them. I was making plans for how to celebrate our five year anniversary together, her sixth birthday, in June.
I cried a lot all day and I’m crying writing this and I’m going to cry a lot for a long time about this.